Tuesday, March 10, 2026: I'm trying to figure out this website builder. I'm seeing how it's going to work for me. I think it's going to be a good experience, I can already kind of tell. I'm just trying out the idea of a daily journal kind of thing. I like the idea of having it on neocities versus posting it on The Big Social Media sites. I don't know. Maybe it doesn't make a difference anyway.

And in the few hours that I've been messing with my site, I've done a few things. I made myself a little sprite!

Wednesday, March 11, 2026: This is has been such a fun endeavor messing with this website. I added some little flairs here and there. I added some cool looking hovering icons. I'm kind of stuck on how to assign an icon. I want my website to have an old 90's style cursor. I found it and uploaded it but I'm having trouble figuring out how to assign it to the whole page. --- I also wanted to add a guest book so whoever wants to leave a message could, but I'm reluctant. Just because I'd rather do it from scratch or figure out a workaround rather than outsource it to another company. It would be really cool to be able to do most of the stuff here locally. So I just had the idea of html forms. I'm going to be working on that next, maybe I can make a guest book that way. Also! Before I forget, I'm really happy with the way my Little Muskrat Sprite is looking. He's super cool! I'm sure you can see my Sonic influence. Anyway... back at it! It's fun. Still got to get to bed soon because I've got to wake up tomorrow to take care of the kiddos!

Thursday, March 12, 2026: Working on the site some more. Added a cool ASCII banner thingy. I wanted it to say Welcome Traveler with my little sprite just to the left of the T. I couldn't quite get it set up the way I wanted but I figured out a decent alternative. I also added a link page. I'm developing my idea of what this site should and could be. Either way, I have to get a new laptop because my new one's keyboard has the letter U getting stuck a lot. Argh!

Sunday, March 15, 2026: Tried to enjoy the weekend as much as I could. We had some guests over. Took care of some things around the house. Nothing fancy. Which makes me think of the word mundane, which has it's latin root Mundos as in wordly. So mundane as in the things I do all the time. But I worked on the website here and there. I just didn't really care to write in the journal. Been too tired to try and do anything except write little bits of code during my downtime. I have little ones here at home so that's consuming most of my time. I'm enjoying them while they're young because y'know... they grow up so fast or whatever... but still I get so damn tired. Maybe it's just me getting older haha. I was working on my Page Not Found page and did (what I think is) fun stuff to it. It reminds of the old internet and easter eggs in video games. So, yeah! I think I'm gonna do more of that! And before I forget, there's this great video game I played a few months back called "High on Life". It was hilarious, fun and pretty indie feeling even though it had Justin Roiland in a lot of it. Love the humor in there. Just thought I'd mention it. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Saturday, March xx, 2026: Happy belated birthday to me! It was not a great one but it's all good. The life of a father is like that. I haven't really been keeping up with my journal but I have been updating the website here and there. I recently (like today) got really into making little pixel art. I've only really done 1. Me as the Muskrat (which is inspired by Sonic) and 2. a brick wall background that I'm trying to figure out how to use. But something even cooler! I managed to do my very 1st gif. I love it so much! I'm pretty happy with the hobby and use of time... I do love reading but I need to really get into a groove whenever I read. Anyway! Going to work on some other things. No time to complain about life. Gotta keep busy! It's the remedy.

Thursday, May 28, 2026: Trying this new thing where I write more. This is the best place I can think of to take text mind dumps. So I have several projects I've been working on. Muskrat is sleeping now. There is now Son of Atzlan. I need to write more songs but so far I have 2. I need to make an instagram for him and figure out what kind of imagery I'm going to use. I was thinking of using a ShyGuy. Because there's thing about Hispanic guys in red hoodies. I have so many spotty ideas for the songs and I need to jot them down when they come to me, for some damn reason using a phone doesn't hit the same way as jotting it down old school. Hell... if I could even physically type it out, even that would feel better. So... maybe I should get a pad and pen, old school. *Note to self* --- So there's some other ideas... ah yes one of them was about writing my book. Well... I've been wanting to write a kids book more recently, but before that I was wanting to write a sci-fi book. I feel it would be a bad idea to divulge too much of THAT information on a public forum. --- Then I was also thinking about making low budget films for funsies. With my phone and go-pro. Just do some cool story lines. I had a thought of doing short film via instagram reels but.. eh.. IDK. Maybe that could be another split, 2 different things lol. Anyway this is feeling good. I'm glad I'm getting this out. --- my partner mentioned that I should start playing music again but... I'm really not into the idea.--- I definitely should prioritize more food prep, eating and consuming more calories so I can build muscle because I'm going to start doing more bicep curls. --- I also need to plan for the kids in terms of scheduling like. We all need to eat at this time, then we go to the park for a bit and come home and nap and then food and activity, reading, music, etc. It's really hard to plan this all out but I'm getting there.

Tuesday June 16, 2026: I feel like everytime I write here I become a different version of myself. There's some authenticity there but it's not really really there... I think it's due to fear. To remain anonymous is the conservative thing to do. Not in the political sense, I hope you know. ... ... So now currently. An event occured that has given me FAR more time than I've ever had before. And I'm not quite sure what to do with the time. So here I am, able to write in my journal and get shit off my chest. No one sees it anyway, so I can really let it splatter. I have such anxiety from "Event" and I can easily end it, but it gives me freedom!! Freedom to write, meditate, exercise, take care of... well.. shit. OK. So my eldest kid just started daycare and I'm like thrilled because I get more free time and ESPECIALLy time with my 2nd born. The baby needs attention and quiet to rest and hasn't received either in full during the workday. So 1st born started daycare, got it. So this morning 1st says, "I don't want to go to school, Daddy" and I'm like... "FUCK. I don't really want to take you, let's chill and brainrot TV all day." Haha no way I didn't say that. But my lizard brain sure did. So I had to battle my lesser half or lower vibrations whatever you call it and my little one. Who then made 2nd born start crying. Haha life of a young dad amirite? Whatever it still sucked pretty hard. And I feel guilty with her not being here... ... I'm sure that's natural but still. I gotta just let it ride I guess. Maybe I can pick her up earlier today? Nah. IDK I'll think about. So I'm guessing the next best thing to do would be to workout and meditate, read some books. I was trying to do some more business shit but most of it fell through. I have a couple of irons in the fire. I divulged a bit to much info to a friend of a friend and there's a chance that they moved on a deal before I was able to. It was my mistake. Now I know that there's a faint line of privacy that you can stay behind. You can give info without giving all the info. Sure there are super stalkers that could track everything down, but really... do they have the time? Time is better spent, playing video games or building a website or jerking off or whatever. And what would anyone do with that? DM you and say a lyric to your song? Then that's a fan, that's cool man. ... ... But still that shit ain't happening. The 5th best use of time would be to read a silly blog one time through and then move on with your life forever. Like seeing someone's stall at a crazy big convention. Unless you really know them, will you see that again? ... ... weird tangent... Anyway... I'm feeling good! but just guilty. I gotta send good vibes to my baby. I am a firm believer of lightwork. There is a lot of depth to the world that we don't understand and I think we need to embrace it. Embrace the ignorance not in a prideful way but a curious one. Say, "gee I thought this, and I hear you. I'll keep that shiz in mind yo." And then stack all the knowledge, cross reference, see the higher stuff. It's awe inspiring. I'm getting all worked up just typing and thinking about it. So sending light to the 1st born. *******((((That you can have a peaceful, curious, fun, easy day before your Daddy gets you. ))))))))))))******** Even in the digital form it's like... etched, right? I'm gonna do it here on the floor in a minute anyway. Sending light and love to you readers too. This is a good feeling and something that I need to embrace more in the moment. In each moment. It's hard but possible. I'll talk more about light work and stuff another time. I ended up feeling better after my writing session and that's something!